I was talking with a good friend of mine who is on our prayer team and they asked me why I always ask to pray for numbers. They asked if our group stayed at 25 or so for the next year but we had a tremendous impact on them, wouldn't that be success? It was a question that I have been rolling over in my head since then. It really called my to examine my motives. What is the reason we want to grow? Is it just to say that we are going to have a big church? So that I can feel successful? In fact it called me to really examine why we are planting a church in the first place...and this is what I keep coming back to:
"It come back to this: hell is hot, and forever is a long, long time. We have a responsibility to reach as many people as we possibly can, as quickly as we possibly can." - Dave Browning
Since, we started praying about planting a church in Raleigh, the thought that 300,000 people in Raleigh don't have a church home has stirred/broken me to a point that it is unnacceptable for me to continue living my life the same.
The following story from Catcher in the Rye really captures what has happened inside of me and that I pray happens to everyone that God calls to be a part of our church.
“There’s an image in the novel The Catcher in the Rye where Holden Caulfield, the hero of the novel, dreams that thousands of children are wandering through a field of rye that has grown so high, they can’t see they are heading for a cliff. They can’t hear Caulfield as he screams to warn them. All he can think to do is run for the cliff’s edge and try to catch as many as he can before they fall.”